…if you don’t understand the post below, it’s because a lot of it contains the obtuse religion-specific terminology I grew up using, and it is unfortunately the only way to communicate with anyone else inside the cult (any who are fellow survivors and have successfully deprogrammed might even get a nostalgia kick out of reading it).

Obviously, I’m having issues with my family members seeking out my personal business and spreading my “shocking tale” like wildfire… which I guess I can understand; when you’re a fundamentalist religious zealot there’s nothing better to do than dig up and spread the juicy gossip, even at the expense of your own flesh-and-blood.

Main point being, sorry if it freaks anybody out    I’m so lucky to have found a “family” of kindred spirits (I love Anne of Green Gables!) who does love me and care for my well-being.

~Bri

P.S. I should probably mention for the benefit of anyone religious; my personal beliefs, whatever they may be, do not include a grudge against god or religion in general.  Religion has its place, and many feel the need for it in their life, in some form.  My beef is with any human (in any religion or non-religion) who  intentionally lies to their followers, deceives them, or exercises mind-control techniques to keep innocent victims under their thumb.  My beef is also with those who refuse to think for themselves and use religion (again, any religion) as an excuse to plug their ears, close their eyes, shout “la-la-la, I can’t hear you!!!!!” and ignore blatant contradictions, misbehaviors, and atrocities.

Hey Brittany,

You’re not welcome at this site.  Never mind how you found it, why are you reading it anyway?  At this point, this site would be considered “apostate literature”, right?

I mean, you wouldn’t want to read this site and find out that, say, your beloved Watchtower Society was a registered member of the U.N. for 10 years, from 1992-2001 (the same U.N. that they have preached for about 80 years is the loathesome “wild beast” of Revelation).  Or that your beloved Watchtower Society has the names of 23,000 accused JW child molesters on file, and has attempted to cover-up the pedophilia rampant in the organization for years, even flagrantly flaunting laws that require accused crimes to be reported to the police.

You would not want to know that perhaps if you were to be raped, the first question the ‘elders’ you’ve loved and trusted since you were a child would be:  “Did you scream?  Were you wearing anything that could have provoked it, brought it upon yourself?!”  You wouldn’t want to know that if you had a knife to your neck and were paralyzed with fear, you would be considered to have submitted to and even enjoyed “fornication”, and thus have sinned.  You wouldn’t want to know that your trusted elders are provided with a handbook from the Society called “Paying Attention to Your Flock” which is not allowed to be seen by rank-and-file JWs (guess who has a pirated copy, complete with WTBTS copyright on the index page?), and which provides them with such similar gems of love and understanding for those under their care.

And I’m sure you’ve never heard of Beth Sarim, although it’s common knowledge to the rest of the world outside of the Society, but few JWs know about it because you’re discouraged from ACTUALLY delving into your religion’s history.  Because it’s lies, all lies!  Right?

There is so, so much more but the point is, you’re anxious to see me shunned because your Watchtower Society (I’m not going to say your god, because I can’t see a loving god heading something as sick as this) is more important to you than your family.  And that’s fine.  To an extent, it’s all I could expect of you.  You always were the type who would rush headlong to shun me at the first sign of “sin” so that you could be a martyr and show family members that you were the perfect little JW china doll.  Asking no questions, doing as you were told, at the expense of all that you are supposed to hold dear.  Jesus said that he wanted mercy and not sacrifice, but boy do those JWs offer up their families on the altar of Jehovah pretty quickly once their eyes are opened to what’s been going on behind the scenes.

It makes me sad for you.  I do pity you, because you will never venture beyond your veiled-off life to discover the real truth behind what you’ve been taught.  You’ve been taught that it’s heresy, apostasy to question the Society, even as they spout hypocritical rhetoric in the July 2009 Awake such as “No one should be forced to worship in a way that he finds unacceptable or be made to choose between his beliefs and his family”.  Really?  How exactly do you reconcile that, Britt?  And for that I feel for you, and for Dad, and possibly even for Mom, despite everything.

I challenge you to research your organization fully.  Not just what you are told in the Society’s history books (although these help prove my point, as they contradict themselves all over the place as well), but real history books, court transcripts, legal documents, everything.  Not “apostate” websites, if you so consider them, but legitimate, unbiased sources.  Then justify to yourself and to your god the atrocities and lies that have been committed in the name of the Watchtower, Bible and Tract Society.

But do not come here looking for reasons to spout off righteous indignation to my family, my friends, or myself.  I am not the one who is too far gone to be saved.  I have finally found freedom, and life, and a man who loves me in all the non-warped, healthy ways my family and the Society will never love me.  I would rather be homeless living in a trailer, homeless living on a park bench – hell, I would rather be dead (and according to you, I will be) than waste one more second  of my life working for an organization (a BILLIONAIRE PUBLISHING COMPANY, not a RELIGION) of GREEDY OLD MEN who are in no way inspired by any god, and have desperately changed their lies so often and all the way up to the present day, it is blatantly obvious to any who would take an hour to research it rather than accept a lifetime of dogmatic spoon-feeding.  If your Jehovah is a god who would choose a band of liars and hypocrites as his mouthpiece, a group of chauvinists who have misled and deceived their followers for over 200 years, then why would I want any part of him?  If you can answer this for me, then my hat is off to you.

Cheers, and please leave now.

~B~